There are times in life where you are so focused on being present during the chaotic energy of creating a new life for yourself that you forget to stop and feel the peace. The peace that comes after the chaotic moments of working hard to pay off debts, the peace that comes from letting go of lovers who drained you. The peace that comes from any important event that is tailored to your life disapates and leaves you a moment of," Wow....I survived it all and I know more than I did then."
I feel many don't give themselves credit for the obstacles they faced in the past few years or even their entire lives. Give yourself some slack and grace about what you overcame. We can focus so much on how we've fucked up something but we give no energy to the now. The now as in the present verison of yourself that may be healing,moving past or currently in the making of getting over what came to destory you. Give yourself your flowers and embrace the few moments of peace during the chaotic phase and especially enjoy it after your storm has passed.
I write this and marvel at how in the past 6 months I've overcame suicidal depression, tough work enviroments, my own self doubt in my artistry, the fear of love and embracing all that I am.But the healing I did through it all made it worth it; I have the energy to write again.
I will continue to write and have the hopes that what I share can help another on their life journey.
I love you.
As much as you love yourself.
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